let me live

Please. Let me live my life the way I want. The way I deserve. Iam doing it the right way. But you can not see that because you are too messed up.
Iam tired in every way possible. Iam struggling too. Why can you not see this?
My mind never switches off. It is constantly going and going.

Is it possible for a person to forget how to relax? I think it is. And im one of them. I lay in bed and can not relax, cant just let my body go. Its like im afraid to relax. I can feel my body going tight when I try to sleep. I wake up during the night with my nails digging into the palm of my hand. My hands in a tight fist. Just squeezing. I wake in the morning aching all over.
I just want you gone. Away.